Trusting isn't always easy.

Today will be marked as a day of new beginnings.  It is a day we knew was coming.  We planned for it.  We watched for it.  Although, we tried to delay it's coming by hoping time would go by slowly.  However, in the reality of life, it came.  It is here.  We are thankful for it, but wish so very much that it had been a different outcome.  We prayed that it would be.  But it wasn't.  It came.  Today is the day.               

How often do we pray and ask the Lord for the desires of our hearts, only to be told a gentle no?  Often times, He answers yes, and gives us that which we ask for.  But often times as well, the answer is a resounding no...one that if we but trust and watch, we will find out that in the end, it was for our good.  Today is one of those "no" days for us.   A day when we had asked God for something different, only to be told no.   We hoped and prayed for a different answer, and we waited on God to show us the way.  What we are given is most surely what we are in need of, for He gives to us all good things.  But it wasn't what we asked for.   Are we angry that we didn't get the answer we desired?  No.  Sad, yes, but not angry.  That doesn't make the accepting any easier, though.    And so...as today turns into tonight, and the night turns into tomorrow,   we will trust and let God's hand lead us.  We will find out what lessons we needed to learn, and we will look back and say....it was for our good.  And we will say, " God knew."  Until tomorrow, though, God knows that my heart will take time for the saddness to ease, for the accepting to become easier.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
and do not lean on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make straight your paths.

—Proverbs 3:5-6

Trust in the Lord, and do good;
dwell in the land and befriend faithfulness.
Delight yourself in the Lord,
and he will give you the desires of your heart.

Commit your way to the Lord;
trust in him, and he will act.
He will bring forth your righteousness as the light,
and your justice as the noonday.

—Psalm 37:3-6


God in His infinite wisdom knows the ending even before we do.  He knows what we have need of, even if we don't understand.   And so we will walk trusting His wisdom for our lives.  We will follow the path He has given, and we will grow and we will learn all that He will teach us.  If, however, I should  have a day when I just don't understand,  and I question "why?" , I know that God will be there..to lift me up and reassure me that He, as my loving Father,  knows best.

And I will trust.